Thursday, December 30

2 more Days

Yeah! Just cum back from Amk center with pearly, amy and tiansong. Bring TS go buy contact lens then went to level5 toilet teach him how to wear, at the end becum help him wear lo. duhz Stay in the toilet for about half and hour, some more is handicap toilet. wahaha..

ok, so 2more days is NEW YEAR le!! Dun kw how will i count down my newyear. Maybe go clubbing maybe at home play maple. haha... Coming to the end of year 2004! Let mi think what i have done for this year.

+ Happy and good memories +

-Got myself a Sony Ericsson Hp
-Went to malaysia to eat clayfish
-Know new friends from ISS and others Join Snk
-Know lots of frens from SNK
-Know people from DHL
-Make alot of close and nice frens
-Go KTV alot of times (i love to sing)
-Eldest sis got married.
-Got my own room (maybe til 2005 fed only)
-My nephew is born on the 25th of DEC
-Going to be an adult soon!
-Manage to pass my yr2 sem2
-Now im in year 3 final year project
-Found someone special (painted colours into my life,you know who u are)

+ Unhappy memories +

-Heart broken around march
-My great grandma fall sick
-I gain weight (from 38kg -39kg or 40kg)
-Lots of clothes i cannot wear (fat le)
-My Hp becum more lousy le (i want to change my hp)
-Got some small quarrels with my sister
-Quited SNK (but im too tired to work)
-Huizi got problems
-Relationship with a girl friend becum not so good le
-I broke my fish tank
-Hp bill becum more and more expensive
-Knowing a sad news

I will stop here.. will continue another day ba... bye~

Life is so weak

Last nite Lida told mi about shimin, im real shock. Didt know that such things will really happen, and she only 18. I only seen her afew times only, knowing tat she is a sweet girl. i Rem when she is working in fareast,i even go to fareast to see her when i go shopping. Very sad to hear this shocking news. You are so silly to do this but yet i really think that you are very brave!
We wont know wat u are thinking at that moment, but if ending your life is the only way i really wish you will feel happier.
Hope that she is now in the heaven living happily. Rest in peace girl.


Why do human need to work so hard to earn a living?
If u dont work hard, u got no money.
Why cant i just live a happy life?
There is always ups and downs that we need to go through.
What we get after working so hard for the whole life?
Nothing, when we die we cannot bring them with us.
All we have are memories...

No matter what we do, being happy is the most important thing. No matter what you do, and what decision you made.. There are no right or wrong. Go with your own will, as long as you are happy.

Wednesday, December 29

I sAW hIM

Saw Kensuke
GUESs WAT? I saw kensuke last nite! Kensuke, Toshi, kusuke(ken's brother) that group was sitting outside cine.But i never see lovely la. From far we saw each other, we just smile. But we never talk, i went up and talk to toshi. Say hi and stuff, whereas ken and mi just eye contact only. Again, the look in his eye! I can see that he is trying to tell mi something? He miss mi? He regret? He tot i cum down to find him? or??? *Punch* I think too much le! hahaha.. He is still very handsome, his smile is always so sweet. Remember amy always ask mi if ken is back and when i saw him, wat will i do? haha, so this is wat i will do ya. Now know liao..Though my heart beat a little faster, but i just look and smile. Hey! Dun misunderstand ar, i not like in the past liao. Now no feel for him liao, i guess i know it very clearly that ken and mi is over and being frens will always be the best choice for someone like him. keke..

MoiveMoive
I went to movie, got a great laugh. The show kind of stupid,lame, no story line but just go there to laugh. Maybe those sitting beside me never really laugh at the show but me.Cuz i laugh at everything, every action, every word. Well well, the movie got so many kind of kung fu, i also got my "yi zi sheng kung"! Who wan to fight with mi? XiaoZhi! your "ru lai sheng zhang" lost to me de lo! No fight la. wahaha..

Program for today
Today after school going to bugis to meet DaDa! Dada sure nag at me de lo, cuz his this year birthday present i stil heaven give him wor. Stuipd DADA!! But nvm la, last time go zouk he always buy drinks for mi, so its ok. Incase u all dun kw, DADA is my buddy!! hehe..

Tuesday, December 28

Nice Nice.. Got meaning~ ^_^

He told mi this song is nice.. yeah, i find it very nice too.. Got meaning (^_~)

Sunday, December 26

MERRY XMAS!!!

Ohoh.. Xmas over le!!! Very long never so so tired le! And finally i put my blog up again, hehe..

Thursday
5am then sleep, and im abit drunk too... But i stil able to walk la. hehe... OMG, on cab i think i told Mingyao something about her gf and my bf... I think im trying to disturb him only, hope nothing bad happen, if not i will be very guilty lo. haha... Anyway got a nice singing session with them la, and Mingyao(best singer award) hehe... Huei say we two sing duet very power wor! Iszit cuz huei drunk liao? lolx..
okok, i also think both of us sang very well...

Friday
Which is xmas eve i 10am then wake up lo(sleep for 5hrs), claire call mi and say if i never go to sch i will need to give Mr ling a reason lo. Then i faster wake up and prepare to go to sch, and im stil abit tissy lo. Im red... put alot of funation to cover my redness.. Then after sch went to city hall with AMy,eMily, Tiansong and haktiong to take photos!!! Very cute de!!! But im like so peiseh cuz all is children lo, then only we 3 is big children so i keep on tell them faster go dun take liao. Hope they never angry ba, cuz i see TS like so unhappy(not his day) then HT like so sian.. so i dun wan them to feel so boliao ma...
Amy and emily dun misunderstand and blame me ok?
Then after tat about 7+ i go KTV with LingLing they all... Super Tired lo.

Saturday
Today which is xmas day, i went to 3places.Went to hospital to see yvonne's(my elderest sis) baby!!! WAH!!!!! Xmas baby wor!!! kekeke.... so good, the baby is born out on the 25th Dec 2:52am... Baby look totally like My sis lo.. like photo copy de. Only diff is he is a boi! haha....
I went to Orchard snk acc Jenny eat.. then acc huei.. DUHZ!! I went there to routine eat with them? Went to bugis to drink coffee too.. very long never go there le, miss this place and i wont forget who i go with de. (^_~)

Ok, counting how many xmas gift i got this year. Not much la, 4-5 only but thats alot le wor. Cuz normally i dun exchange de. hehe... Kk, i will take some pictures of my present when im free and upload here ok. And wait for amy to send mi those cute pic we took at city hall then upload too!!
This YEar 2004 de xmas is quite Fun wor!! So many outings...

Now very tired liao.. need to go and sleep le.. NiteNite!!


Presents:
Alex-Nice small Wallet(i chose de) , $80 for my hair
Huizi and Qian- Exchanging soon
Lab exchange(claire)-Cute coin pouch (like it alot)
SNK exchange(huei)-a cutie Jap top(too big) and a Nice necklace(to replace the top, chose by yiyi very nice!)
Jeremy- Nice Big Ear Ring(i like alot, but abit heavy cannot wear too long)
Sisters-Dun kw still got exchange anot.
Cousins-Dun kw they exchanging anot.

Thursday, December 23

Presentation week6

My presentation suspose to be at 9am this morning, im in class by 8:30am. To try out my program incase its not working. Yeah its working well so i just goto wait.. wait... no one cum to lab yet! Bi hui is the first to reach, then im 2nd. She went out after she took attendance so im the only one in the lab. Its 9am!! Still there is no one on the lab yet! Looking into pearly's lab which is only beside mine, they are doing their presentation. And my lab is emty! Even lab tec also not here... 930am! Im stil the only one! DUhz.. even the John he is the one to access our project not here too. DANG! Then PEarly present finish le ask mi go eat breakfast.

Only til about 12+pm then john cum. I know emily very hungry liao but i cannot go out, sorri wor. Then he access my project, then he very perposely de lo. Ask mi those questions that actually he know lo, then he act blur like dun kw. Then stil say my program de design very old fashion. DUHZ! Then i straight aways shot him say this is not mine design ma, is design by others then i carry on doing de ma. Then my lab people say im like quarrelling with him. haha.. No la i never lo, cuz i know he quite good to girls de ma. hehe..

Later going to orchard le wor.. with huei and jeremy joining us after his school end, but jeremy never go the ktv la. I ask him go walk walk with us. Wisma they wan to go Party world lei, but im real broke lo. $30 til 28th lo. Then tomolo xmas eve! How? Huei say go home not a problem la, cuz he also north side ma. Then KTV how? He say got ralph. haiz.. but i really dun kw how.
Then before they say wan to pick names for the present, i already bought one gift for them le. Then now i know im gonna give to a new girl, im worry that she might not like wat i give wor. I think ok ba? xchange gift ma, nvm de hor? The thing is more to IT de.
Then tomolo also must remember to bring the present i bought for my lab de gift exchange! YEAH! tomolo half day! till 1pm only!!! wahahaha...

Anyway!!! MERRY XMAS to all !!! I love the song "last xmas!!" so nice~

Wednesday, December 22

Emily is back

YEah! EMily back yesterday le, Miss her so so much! She bought a My melody hand tower, a bracelet and a tites for mi. She buy all tis from hongkong i think.. Hehe.. So happy to get gift..
Im wearing the bracelets now wor.. See i so "sister", yesterday give mi i today wear liao.

mmm.. my presentation is on thursday also.. 9am!! Yesterday my supervisor very good, come and teach me do(actually is he do then line by line explain to me la. hehe) Then now im goto recoard some voice again lo, then he will tell mi wat to do next le. Hopefully he everytime like tat do for mi lo. wahaha..

Tomolo im going to wisma to exchange xmas gift with my collages.. hehe.. Then friday exchange with my lab de ppl. WAH!!! like so happening like tat.. First time exchange with so many people, normally only exchange with huizi, xiuqian and my sisters(blood sister) only.

Then xmas eve which is friday, dun kw can go where lei. Amy thinking go my dad there eat steamboat BBq lei. I want to go out with my frens lei, but most fren got own program. Then go out with alex seem to be the only way and i guess if i really never meet him he will feel very sad lo. Cuz his frens and him use to have me around le ba. BEcause last saturday i never go out with him, all his frens ask where am i. Then all saying alot of rubbish la.

Recently life is sux lo.. Everyweek need to face some troubles or problems de, like tat then happening iszit? No choice lo, this is "life". Rem last time my fren like to use this word "this is life". Last time i hear liao i feel so attitube like tat.. But now, i myself like to say this le. All the things happen around us, no matter is happy or sad, all is the path that we need to go thru.. so that we will grow up.. THIS IS LIFE!
This is wat i use to console myself so that i got the strenght to carry on walking..

Tuesday, December 21

What am i?

Im sux,
im no good,
Ugly,
Fat,
Short,
Not understanding,
Not caring,
No charm'
Im not worth a cents.

I hate growing up, start to find that my life change. I expect different things and want different things. Life Sux!

Monday, December 20

Bibi Saint~

I feel something bad happening inside me.
The angel and the devil is fighting...
Fighting inside me, all over me.
I feel ace in my heart, it hurts.
Its painful, the devil is burning my heart
The angle is asking me to pull back.
Suddenly feel that i cant breath...
My hands are cold
My heart beats faster and faster...
Im stuggling for help.
Feel that im gonna die...

Saint Bibi

Sunday, December 19

Saturday night

I yesterday noon 1230pm go out meet huizi for shopping le lo... then we walked the whole of orchard le. We took the sofa neoPrint too.. hehe.. Then rain lo... Got to run in the rain... Then after that LingZi(huizi younger sister) come and join us too, she super cute. Her voice lo, then huizi very bad, keep on disturb her. Then lingZi very funny de, keep on want to eat things..
She slim down alot le, due to that time her bf run away with girls then they break off. She tat time super depression stage lo. Then slim down alot alot like huizi now.
I also wan lei! I wan to be slim slim.. She say that time she always never eat things.. but for my case difficult, when im sad i will eat more lo. haiz...... HOW?

About 7plus go Ps to meet Pearly, Jere,Keith,Ballon and "ah boy". The ah boy is a new staff from toapayo, at 1st i tot is guy lo. Then end up is a girl lo, we super shock lo. No need to think much la, must be keith le la. He super lots of ideal for this type f nick name de, but tat girl really super cute! she also very small size(even smaller size than me, cuz i fat la.), her face also look like xmm... Like 16yrs old like that. Pearly and my facial expression both is de lo when we know she 18yrs old, hahaha...

Well this is the 1st time i watch the same movie for the 2times, lucky in the movie got ppl crap with me and this "blade" looks quite short about 1half hr so stil ok la. Inside i keep on disturb pearly lo, this is the first time i see movie so noise lei. Normally i very quiet, sit there guai guai see de. Yesterday due to some reasons.. im very playful and rubbish lo. hehe.. First and the most impt reason is because i watch before le, second reason is because... Dun kw why someone see movie also so stress ar... hahaha... Sorri ar, cannot say. Only PEarly, Jere, maybe keith and me know wat im talking about. wahaha...

After movie then all go back lo, that Jere also stuipd de lei. He ownself walk to orchard to meet his frens, he stil tell us he go home then complain say he so ke lian must alone wallk to orchard. Pearly and me already ask him go where why nv jio liao... He ar, stuipd de.

Then very angry de lo, we wait for the bus for half and hour lo! PISSED! Then when we waiting something happening happened. EEEEEEE....... The worm... Ok i should not talk about this part, mayb pearly will write in her blog la.

Ok today do wat lei? first thing wake up i on my computer le, chat with my frens for awhile. Not much people online le. Jere say he sick le, nw he sleeping. Paige also sick hor, dun kw she ok le ma. Me lei? i preparing my instant laksa lo, then can eat le. hehe... LAter maybe meeting up with Alex, dun kw where he wan to go lei. Mayb end up also never go out, he everytime like tat de.. ok la.. shall stop here... Go eat le..

Friday, December 17

my eyes!

oh god.. rem wednesday i got the "needle eyes", after i go home sleep it recover yesterday. But Today when i wake up, my eyes dun have the "needle" but its pain and swollen.Then my eyes look like panda like that.
Anyway i got a great night last night playing the NEW MSN7 and the mines game. hehe..

Feel like going to wisma find wanyi and huei they all today lei, today friday 5.30am can go home le. If later my eyes better then i go down ba. hehe...

Sometimes just dont know why the stuipd friendster thingy keep on creating problems to my happy life.Again~ becuz of some stuipd photo stuff, becuz i never upload some photos.. blah blah.. Anyway i have already did wat he wanted mi to do. So ok dun wanna say more about it, those that is close to me should know wat happen la. Everytime is Friendster Friendster Friendster Friendster!!!!! Sux, dun know this friendster thing is good or bad!

Today is a new day of changing blood~ --> Fainted. haha... shh...

Thursday, December 16

My horoscope kiss

This is my horoscope kiss.. i got 2 type of horoscope as my birthday is on the last day of Capricorn and the first day of Aquarius. Sometimes im like Capricorn, sometimes im like Aquarius. There is about 89-99% true wor.. hehe...

Wednesday, December 15

JAck JAck

Hehe... look at my JAckJaCk! Cute right? Morning eat le lei, actually i dun intend to eat lunch but they say jackJack out le so amy very excited wan to go buy le. Then we went there, see the jackjack real cute lo. I think and think then decided to buy, lucky i nv think for too long ar. When im at the counter its the last jackjack!!!


Taken in school~
Face look alike!
Bibi and GerGer

Ger,bi,mi and JAckJack


hehe.. i also copy from Pearly's.. But not from her link la. Is save as.


Just now went to serangoon garden coffeebean with Jeremy to meet paige for her birthday "celebration", well we just sit there drink my FAV pepermint white chocolate and chat only. 3of us very lame and crap also la... Then after that Snk Eric also cum...
keke, hope she enjoy herself with our accompany wor~ I went back at abt 11pm, take bus 136 then change bus22 back with jeremy. But his 22 is the opposite side of mine la,he go Tampines i go back AMK. i about 10mins reach home le, jere 12am like tat then reach home. haha...

Taken at home after the Coffeebean~ (With my webcam)


Reply to CRH:
if both of us are really inlove, love each other very deeply... And one day god told me we have no future of coz i will be damn sad. But i will cherish this realationship even more!!! So that if one day i really lose it, i will not regret. Thought i lose,the good memory will always be there...

Monday, December 13

cool photos

hey hey~~ This are our cute photoS taken during break time! Too bad our other members not in school if not all of us take sure very cute de.

Black and white negative


We are on TV~



Cute right?

handsome prince

Im sufing net in school and saw this picture, he is the elf prince. I find it really nice, i like his eyes.



Look into his eyes, what can you see?

Sunday, December 12

What is surprise?

*What kind of susprise is surprise? What is surprise?*
When someone give u a gift suddenly? When he appear infront of you suddenly? When he bought your Favour drinks or food for you without you telling him/her?

*Love*Trust*
Something happen during this weekend between my friend (a couple), which make me feel very sad for them. Some times relationship is so funny and like to play with us. A couple can be really inlove for a moment and the next moment turn out to be like enemys. Or can be inlove like never before then because they lost trust in each other and wrosten the relationship.
Managing a relationship is really hard and hurtful. All of us dont want to hurt others and dun wan to get hurt. But anyone actually know
what is LOVE?
What is true love?
Can i really love someone?
How deep can i be inlove?
How to make someone love me?
How long can he/she love me? or be inlove?
Can he/she dun hurt me?
No one knows the ans...
The worst part is when you thought he/she really love you but the actual fact turn out to be another way. Or loving someone that dont love you, or be with someone that his/her heart belongs to another person.Love is llike a gamble.. Either you win or u lose.

Saturday, December 11

Oh my God

Oh god~ i spent last nite and tis afternoon to do this new layout of my blog! becuz the old one again got problems with this blogger.. so i goto d a new one again. This time round im going to save a backup copy everynow and then!
Finally thought i have finish doing my blog.. then my cousin told mi that my doodleBoard is not working!!! Sux~ Arg... im checking the codes over and over le! Friends just aim out of the textbox! or u use tab to tab around lo.. no choice... im too tired to find the error...
AnyOne can help mi???

Just now my sister told me that Jeff is looking for me, shit! im not done with the things he wanted mi to do man~ ok i tried to see the flash part. I try.. but its rather hard. okok, im stupid then. Too bad lo, got money also cannot earn. Such a stupid me! So sorri to waste Jeff time to brife me thru those program things. PeiSeh la~

YEsterday went to bishan to meet eugenus, John and Denise.. Eugenus hair is so long, he nv cut hair for like 1yr, seen the last time i meet him. ok, in aust nvm seem to be cool ya. In SG No Man~ Like malaysia ah beng.. hahaha... Denise cut her hair short and look so mature now, she is only 17? and now looks like 23? Oh sorri! haha... John, stil the same.. But his alittle of beng attitube never change.. They are stil as playful as before~
As for me, i feel that i change quite alot within this half year. Last time Denise they like to disturb mi say im very small size all that, yesterday she stil did that. But i now never quietly let her disturb lo. Stil got try to say back something lo.Then now really feel somet of their reaction abit "xiao hai zi" =X opps.. Last time when i go out with them i stil feel ok, abit special? Because they are non-locals... Got AngMo,ABC,SG,China,Jap,Thai,Indos... Thats why its so fun hanging out with them but they always "AA" de. Then make alot of noise, people will keep on looking. Then actually we wanted to go coffeeBean for coffee but too many people, they wanted to go to town but i dun feel like going.. 9+ abit late le. So i not ONS lo.. i go home. So peiseh...

k lo, later meeting a girl at orchard. Now go see VCD awhile then can bath le.. hehe...

Thursday, December 9

Thursday blue~

Arg, vEry suai de lei. Having brEkfast half wAy only then MrLing cOme to lab le, then my spy SMS tell mi my "boss" is here. I faster drink my milo then faster rush back to lab.. arg >_<"" Back to lab, he ask mi about the voice he asked me to record. Yeah, im working on it! Heard him testing my Voice :"You have dial, 6,0,5,3,8,2,1,7." OMG!!!! That is what i did? lolx.. The voice sounds so childish mAn~ (DaJie teach me got to be firm! ok i try ya ^_^)

12+pm went for Noon break, got my PeaNut ButTer M&M!! i know its fattening! But i just got hooked to this Mr M&M. sob... Then sit at the poNd there with Pearly, Tiansong and Amy again~ seem like iT bEcum oUr Fav hAng oUt pLace le wOr?
Back to lab again.. That stuip TS Msn mi "xiao ban"(small fatty) arg... >_<>dou dou lian"~ haha... we somehow disturb eachother then he very bad de ppl say him one thing only, he say i fat then say i pimples face. $%$#^%& He stil pin point out say "Your body is broad, your arms are like gaint!" hump..hump.. So sad~~ Im trying hard to on diet le! Im trying im trying!!! "Curse him curse him:doudou lian!!" =D

ok another one hour to go~ YEAH~


My PeaNut Butter M&M!!!

Wednesday, December 8

tired nite!

Im tired~ Recently nEver goT to slEep early...Yawn~ Today Mr ling cAme in the lAb tO seE oUr prOgress whEn im haVing my lUnch! DuHz =_= i faSter rUsh tO bAck aFter eAting cHicKen rIce aT SBM. EAt the HaiNaese chIcken rice, not nice de. The breast meat!! SUX!!!

Then back to lab, MrLing actually teach me how to do the debug of the c#. So tOuch mAn~ hehe.. He sTayed for awhile only tHen he gO ofF le cuz hE iS sTill oN lEave~
I wan M&M peanut butter!! Miss the taste mAn~ Asked TianSong to bUy fOr me.. hehe.. Thanks Tiansong for bUying M&M for mi but yOu boUght tHe wRong FAV. I wAnt peanut butter but u buy peanut. lol... ok nvm, thanks anyway ok! You are so sweet~

HaVe beEn doing the FP things for afEw days, so tired. No wonder Amy say Post better.BecAuse wan to arrange for meet up sO diffiCult and tired de. >_<*

Paige:
If u reading my blog, plz cheer up ok. No matter what happen, still got to move on~ There are people that live a life that is wrost than any of us here.. Cherish ur liFe ok! WeN Di Support YOU... Push Your BACK and sAy:" MOVE ON GIRL!!!"

New Friends of the week:
Jeremy (SNK PWP)
He is chatty,sweet and caring. Say himself yanDao!! lolx...
wEiYang (Classmate de fren, LAB mates. lolx)
Impression is AhBeng, shy ba~

Lala~

Went to NTUC yesterday after school, to buy ham and my FAV Melting Kiss(meiji) chocolate! Because the aunti that cum to my door to do survey give me a $10 voucher after i try the shampo she give me.
This aunti make mi so headace man~ Because i see her so kelian need to go door to door to do the survey so i help her lo. Then my mum scold mi for opening door to take the shampo and talk too much to the aunti. My mum even go and tell my relative, she work place de frens and my sister. =.= Then she see the shampo once she nag at mi once, arg... Lucky now over liao, i can "hao lian" to her that the aunti never bluff mi. hehe...

This is the voucher!!!


okok gonna update later if anything happen ok...

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In your final kiss
I could taste the flavor of tobaco
It was a bitter and painful smell
At about this time tomorrow
I wonder where you'll be
I wonder who you'll be thinking of
You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one
The time which has stopped
Is about to start again
It's just that there are things I don't want to forget
At about this time tomorrow
I'm sure I'll be crying
And I'll probably be thinking of you
You will always be inside my heart
Because it's a place that will forever be yours alone
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one
You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad love song
Now and forever